i clench my teeth around cigarettes and a duvet that is not my own...

This is by far the happiest that I have ever been in my life. I am such a happy person now! The last two weeks have been so brilliant. I love my life! Thank you to all those people that have supported me throughout the bad. You will be in my heart forever. I just want you to know that I'm so happy in my life right now.

This will be the last entry made on this account. It's time for a change. For those who care, my new Livejournal username is Laurenhurley. Find me, add me, if you want.

Love love love x

I'm a zombie!

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I always want what I can't have and then when I get it-I don't want it anymore.

Amd that is why I am a shit person.

I walked through a door today and I couldn't remember where I was going or where the door lead to. For a second I was completely lost and so confused...it was a scary moment.

God damn - even pressing the 'log in' button took me about 5 minutes to do!

After many, many drinks. Martin (the guy that's had a crush on me for about 6 months) asked me, "What do you look for in a penis?"

My answer - ( a vagina. )

hmm...chose to listen to the dresden dolls today because it's been absolutely ages since I last did. came on the internert to see that they're touring over here again! But the Astoria!? Shit, that's huge compared to The Scala where I last saw them. Dammit. I hate it when bands get big. I'll probably go to Brighton and see them aswell. It is like, on my birthday, afterall.

Went bowling with work today. It was ok. Beat being at home, anyway. I was invited to the pub after but I really couldn't be bothered. I was there last night and it was pretty boring. I had a couple of drinks bought for me though and a couple of people saying that I looked nice so it wasn't all bad.

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Pelican
@ Reading Face Bar
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There was no lighting, at all. I had to use flash. I stuck to using 0"4 w/ f3.5.

Dirty Love
@ London Garage
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Lighting was very poor. I had to time every shot that I took. I did ok, seeing as I had punks pushing into me and people moshing.

Stars
@ Reading Art Center
08/12/05
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Please take the time to look and comment. I feel that my work is really progressing now that I've finally got my camera. It has given me the freedom to finally be able to catch a band exactly how I want to. Your opinions mean everything to me.

Me and three of my male friends were all sat round a table at the pub. We were playing a drinking game with a pack of cards; where each card represents a different activity. Bain picked up the card that entitles you to ask the group a question that everyone has to answer.

The question was, "Out of all of the people in this pub; who would you choose to have a one night stand with?". We went in turn at answering and all three of them pointed to me and said, "you". It was my turn. "The girl in the blue on the next table."

All three guys lowered their heads in shame, haha. No one ever said that it had to be male!

i'm talking to lush for the first time in months. i told him how i am gay, and it's been a very rewarding conversation. he's certainly helped boost my confidence and he's imvited me out with him and his gay friends for a night out in london. he even gave me alink to his lesbian housemate's profile!

Sigur Ros
@ Brixton Academy, London
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These were the only images that survived...i downloaded images to disc, wiped my memory card clean and then the disc broke! These were taken on my other memory card.

Bob Dylan and his band
@ Brixton Academy
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Pictures aren't so great seeing as I was miles away!

Tim Holehouse
@ Basingstoke Silks
24/11/05
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Frank Turner
@ Basingstoke Silks
24/11/05
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A few months ago a photographer asked me, "If you had to choose between a boyfriend or the camera of your dreams, what would you choose?" I said, "the camera" although I didn't really believe it at the time.

And no kidding, so I would. A minute ago Si spoke to me for the first time in ages. I'd been looking forward to speaking to him for a few weeks now...but after a minute or two of me talking about my new camera; I totally abandoned him to go and play with it.

Came back to see he'd gone off saying, "have fun with your camera. I know where my place is." Oops.

Is it wrong to love my camera so much?

Today I spent £1000 in cash. I now have my dream camera! At long last! Canon 20D is finally mine, all mine.

I've only had it an hour and I only know the very basics of it, but i'm already in love with it!

today in my mac skills lesson; i learnt how to airbrush my face. it was great - i was spot free!

Architecture In Helsinki
@ London Scala 14/11/05
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The pictures that I took on my film SLR were better...my digital ran out of batteries and these were the only pictures that I got :(